y?

I wait wait nd keep waiting for a call i know will never come

for the return of something dat was never mine

i yearn for a lot of things buh  too scared to say dem out loud just in case they run away

I have opened my heart to dat which dey call love and have been burnt badly

d sheer madness and feeling of helplessness bewilders me

y do i have to be the one to suffer nd cry

while he carries on like ever before

yyyyyy so many why's 

i guess il know d answer someday until den!

Random Ramblings

Am reli trying to develop the habit of blogging frequently buh sumtyms it does feel like nobody reads my blog buh i hear dey say writing things is cathartic wow anyways in spite of my annoying loud flat mate am gonna keep writing with d hope dat spontaneity ends up making reading this post worthwhile..... hmmm i yearn for a great many things.. i yearn for lost innocence before the awakening of carnal desires, i yearn for the strength, courage, independence and ambition i had when i thought life was either black / white buh today as  i type- things are indeed different i no longer feel like a superwoman my strength seems to be gone ,ambition flat, courage zero ..ask me y?
i reli dnt knowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.....................